Things are getting a bit heavy. I have to determine what I’m going to do for my surgery which will be 1 month or so after my last chemo (scheduled for Thursday, July 9th). I met with my new surgeon on Friday (I liked him) and on Tuesday I’ll meet with a plastic surgeon. Decisions, decisions. It weighs heavily on me but I’ve got my pros and cons list going and as I talk to more people (doctors, surgeons, fellow breast cancer survivors) my decision has been swinging one way then the next. I think I am actually starting to settle down toward a decision but until I speak to the plastic surgeon and get a second opinion from another doctor out of state, it’s hard to be 100% sure just yet.  What I can say is the following: I now have about 3-4 good reasons for choosing one option over the other, and I may have identified my deal-breaker, that makes the decision and all of the discussions about percentage of reoccurrence possibility all seem to melt away.  If that does continue to stick with me, then I think I’m about 80% of the way to my decision. It’s a big, heavy decision. It’s going to take some settling into.

On another “heavy” note I still seem to be slowly putting on a pound or so a week. Nearly had a fit at the surgeon’s office when it rang me in at 146! No, I weigh 142 and as of last fall when I was healthy I ran a standard 140, and at the start of this whole cancer mess I was running 138. Yes, the surgeon’s scale must have been off a bit! Either way, I don’t really like it. I’ve worked too hard going to the gym and now I can just see the numbers slowly creeping up. I was informed that on average, most women put on 10 lbs during chemo – news to me. I would like to hold under 145, closer to 142 if possible. It’s a psychological thing for me. Thing is, with all of the drugs in my system my hormones and body is more than a little out of whack and there isn’t too much I can do. I’m working to eat healthier (the chip-o-holic hasn’t been around since I kicked her out). No matter what happens I’m staying on hydrated and active!! This is only temporary.